All I ever want to do is hang out with you. Really, this is all I ever want to do. “Stop it.” I have to say this to myself as I walk past your door. “You are being silly, this is silly.” I know this. And still, all I [...]

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Around 11am he got stuck. The sentences had been coming in good order — he had worked steadily for over two hours — but now his mind was in a fog and he had spent 10 minutes trying to move past a simple grammatical problem. It seemed that all he could think about [...]

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I remembered what I love about poems.

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Do you not think that life is fucking impossible? I mean, it always turns out being backwards. You want what you don’t have, you have what you don’t want, the people you love are not the ones stalking you down empty corridors, the words that come out of your mouth are so rarely [...]

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Don’t Belle and Sebastian have a song about this?
I wish I had my own universe, somewhere between here and nowhere. I’d live on a cloud. Others could live there too, but on their own clouds. We’d build houses out of air and destroy them with a breath. You could [...]

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She wants me to tell her that I need her, but I can’t, I just can’t. It is hard in life to go about giving up one’s sense of righteousness, one’s control of one’s own little, shoddily-built world. I can’t let her come in and tear things apart and remake them as her [...]

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I wish I could fall into a story the way Alice falls into a hole, unstoppably. I wish there were a flow, a motivation, a need to exist that supported my somewhat addled attempt at putting things together where they did not exist before. i wish I could get out of my head, [...]

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Painting is going on my list of things I want to learn everything there is to know about. I cannot wrap my mind around the concept of technique, but I believe it when people say that it exists. I want to know where it lives and how one gets to it and what [...]

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Getting lost is my favorite pastime. It is both marvelous and frightening that through a series of predetermined motions I can untether my day, achieve a state of mind where everything is free. I look up and am suddenly traveling among buildings and clouds, feeling like the air I breathe fills my body, [...]

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(I have decided to learn everything there is to know about music. In truth I have decided to learn everything there is to learn about everything. But this morning’s project is music.
Hedwig keeps coming back through my headphones: You think that luck has left you there, but what if there’s nothing up in [...]

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